Lookin to My Life

Dream !! I can

2009-02-15T17:57:00.002+05:30

Wish a New Day Could be

- When day will be mine
- the day I will be alone
- the day I will be free
- the day follows all the wish that I have wished
- the day makes smile to people
- smile to the people around me
- and to the people around the people around me

Wish a New Day Makes

- the flower to blow
- a wind to flow
- in a shinny day
- makes a rainbow glow
- a sunshine bright
- with all and night
- everything is all right

I wish a New day everyday

I am a Blogger

2009-02-11T14:24:00.003+05:30

Just wondering, why start writing when I feel so heavy in the mind?

As typical Indian, or may be typical scorpion that I maintain my happiness in all situation. Writing some random things helps me in shredding the random memories temporarily.

I am getting the feeling that together we all will become alone. Together Alone, what a cliche.

Well just two lines;
I am form believer of existence of God. And it is true that God has his eyes on even a single sparrow.
He carefully watches all the sparrow sitting on the branch.

Never Cry for One Who Makes You Cry !

2009-02-10T09:45:00.004+05:30

Once, there was this guy, who was in love with a gal. She wasn't the most beautiful and gorgeous but for him, she was everything.

He used to dream about her, about spending the rest of life with her. His friends told him,"why do you dream so much about her, when you don't even know if she loves you or not? First tell her your feelings, and get to know if she likes you or not".

He felt that was the right way. The girl knew from the beginning, that this guy loves her. One day when he proposed, she rejected him. And he was not depressed at all.

He felt that this was the end of every love story he came across in the world. Then why'd he be different from others. He believed in what they have said "Man propose, God Dispose". So he started believing in the reality, which he is still finding in this unreal world.

For me:
I lost one who never loved me & she lost the one
who really loved and cared for her.

LOVE

2009-01-21T23:15:00.003+05:30

What is love?

Guess children knows it better than anyone and everyone..... Here are some answer.....

'When my grandmother got arthritis, she couldn't bend over and paint her toenails anymore. So my grandfather does it for her all the time, even when his hands got arthritis too. That's love.'
Rebecca- age 8

'When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different.
You just know that your name is safe in their mouth.'
Billy - age 4

'Love is when a girl puts on perfume and a boy puts on shaving cologne and they go out and smell each other.'
Karl - age 5

'Love is when you go out to eat and give somebody most of your French fries without making them give you any of theirs.'
Chrissy - age 6

'Love is what makes you smile when you're tired.'
Terri - age 4

'Love is when my mommy makes coffee for my daddy and she takes a sip before giving it to him, to make sure the taste is OK.'
Danny - age 7

'Love is when you kiss all the time. Then when you get tired of kissing, you still want to be together and you talk more. My Mommy and Daddy are like that.
They look gross when they kiss'
Emily - age 8

'Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents
and listen.'
Bobby - age 7 (Wow!)

'If you want to learn to love better, you should start with a friend who you hate,'
Nikka - age 6

'Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, then he wears it everyday.'
Noelle - age 7

'Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well.'
Tommy - age 6

'During my piano recital, I was on a stage and I was scared. I looked at all the people watching me and saw my daddy waving and smiling.
He was the only one doing that. I wasn't scared anymore.'
Cindy - age 8

'My mommy loves me more than anybody
You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night.'
Clare - age 6

'Love is when Mommy gives Daddy the best piece of chicken.'
Elaine-age 5

'Love is when Mommy sees Daddy smelly and sweaty and still says he is handsomer than Robert Redford.'
Chris - age 7

'Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day.'
Mary Ann - age 4

'I know my older sister loves me because she gives me all her old clothes and has to go out and buy new ones.'
Lauren - age 4

'When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you.' (what an image)
Karen - age 7

'Love is when Mommy sees Daddy on the toilet and she doesn't think it's gross.'
Mark - age 6

'You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget.'
Jessica - age 8

~ forwarded mail

Life as always

2008-09-08T12:25:00.002+05:30

Life !!! Again.......

Seems that life again rolled a dice.

This time I wanted to change my past.

I wanted to remove, to shred some random memories,

Some memories are that were good,

But some things in life never change

I cared someone more than someone near to me,

I felt her presence, somewhere near to me,

When I wanted to feel, I tried to convince her that I am me,

I know that I am not good, not bad to ignore me.

Some things in life never change.

Reminding those days...

Those good'ol days... and good'ol time

The time we spent... we spent to listen....

To listen.. the things of our life...

Because once she had a faith in me.

But somethings in life always change

The time has change

The life has change

The days have change

But feeling for her will never change.....

September Again

2008-09-05T07:47:00.004+05:30

September

Many years gone. Many to come

But the September of my life will never come again.

Years come and go....

But I still remember that september.

Things were different at that time..

Some things I have with me.....

But I lost the valuable most....

This September I want to go the place...

The place where we met....

I will a bouqet of Rose....

To put on the gravestone of our love...

This September.... you came to life......

This September you became part to life....

September you fill me with you colours so bright....

The mellowness of you fills me with delight...

September

You made me happiest person.. but

September... Why do bring me so much sadness?

September... Why do you bring me so much pain?

September... Why do you want me to cry?

September... Why do you want me to let tears fall out frm my eyes......

Forever Friends

2008-08-02T17:43:00.001+05:30

Friend...
Dedicated to the greatest friends ever,
Animesh, Venky, Sumdya, Gopi

We are Friends,
We are close, yet we are far,
We share, but hardly talk
We care, because we are here
Beacause we are friends

Your Friendship is,
Motu - Greatest of all,
Animesh - Richer than Chocs,
Gopi - Sweeter than mistis,
Sumdya - Most fun than Icecream,
More than all, you all make a greatest dessert in my life.

A friends like you,

is hard to find...
difficult to part with
and treasured forever.

A Bird’s Melody

2008-07-29T13:20:00.002+05:30

(A Bird’s Melody)

Habataitara modorenai to itte
Mezashita no wa aoi aoi ano sora
Kanashimi wa mada oboerarezu
Setsunasa wa ima tsukami animate
Anata e to idaku kono kanjou mo
Ima kotoba ni kawatteku
Michi naru sekai no yume kara mezamete
Koko hane wo hiroge tobi datsu

Habataitara modorenai to itte
Mezashita no wa aoi aoi ano sora
Tsuki nuke Tara mitsukaru to shitte
Furikiru hodo
aoi aoi ano sora
aoi aoi ano sora
aoi aoi ano sora

You say if you could fly, you’d never come back down
You only have eyes for that blue, blue sky
You’ve yet to learn what sadness is
And are just now grasping what pain is like
Even the feelings I have for you
Must be expressed with words.
As you awake from a dream into an unknown world,
Spread your wings, and take flight!

You say if you could fly, you’d never come back down
You only have eyes for that blue, blue sky
You know if you just make it through, you’ll find what you seek
So keep trying to break free,
To that blue, blue sky
To that blue, blue sky
To that blue, blue sky

Reason to Love

2008-07-25T12:18:00.003+05:30

“I love you,
Not only for what you are,
But for what I am
When I am with you.

I love you,
Not only for what
You have made of yourself,
But for what
You are making of me.

I love you
For the part of me
That you bring out;

I love you
For putting your hand
Into my heaped-up heart
And passing over
All the foolish, weak things
That you can’t help
Dimly seeing there,
And for drawing out
Into the light
All the beautiful belongings
That no one else had looked
Quite far enough to find.

I love you because you
Are helping me to make
Of the lumber of my life
Not a tavern
But a temple;
Out of the works
Of my every day
Not a reproach
But a song.

I love you
Because you have done
More than any creed
Could have done
To make me good
And more than any fate
Could have done
To make me happy.
You have done it
Without a touch,
Without a word,
Without a sign.
You have done it
By being yourself.
Perhaps that is what
Being a friend means,
After all.”

--- Craft

ITP 1st July 2005

2008-07-01T22:53:00.008+05:30

Thanks to Mrudul for such a nostalgic moment.

"So much to share
So much to care

Lots of laughter
Turn anywhere…

Shayaries and jokes
And forwards all day
Puzzles and sports
And Pictionary we play

We tease each other.
We beg for replies
“sab so gaye kya?,
Koi mail to karo” cries

And we can talk,
Round the clock
I sometimes wonder
From where comes this stock

I wish the fun
Lasts forever..
This wonderful friendship
Is lost never… "
- Surbhi

28 people join the same batch called ITP 1st July

Agarwal Mridul- The great one, from RKNEC Nagpur, The first one to left Syntel officially.
Ketki Bhagat - The greatest mind as ppal called her. She used to cry, glossophobiac . Right now doing MBA from Nirma University
Sagar Deshpande - He was from Chandrapur College.
Anshul Vyas - He was also from Chandrapur college. Pursuing MBA from NMIMS
Nikhil Pendse - So we called him chicken. He also left Syntel with me. MBA from KJ Somaiya.
Abhjjit Lahiri - He was from my college. We call him Dada.
Naheeda Pasha - A quality analyst in Syntel. From KDK college
Roshni Tiwari - A cool girl from Pune. She is still continuing Syntel
Devaprem - A major geela(IIMC lingo). MS in USA
Prince Agarwal- He was from Priyadarshini. Left Syntel. He is the only MBA right now.
Sumit Patodia - Patto as we call him was from PC.
Akashdeep Khera - The great. He was the first to left Syntel. pusuing MBA from US
Anuj Kapoor - Don't know much. But we shared a same room in Mumbai.
A. Lalitha Rao- No idea. But she was from KDK if am not wrong
Sandeep Karwa - We called him phityal. Didn't require much of intro. MBA from MDI Gurgaon.
Vibhor Mundhada - The great singer. greatest boozer. MBA SCMHRD
Anubhav Verma - Does he requires intro. Nopes. Great Visionary. MBA GLIM
Ameeta Mohata - Still Continuing Syntel. I know her when we were in same class. "Souche"
Surbhi Taori - See the poem you will come to know
Amit Dhadwe - You will learn dedication from him when you meet him. Still in Syntel
Chaitanya Inamdar - Mahaprabhu. The great numismatic was from Pune. Still continuing
Nitin Kumbhare - Now we share some bond thats why we shared our happiness joy sorrow for two long years
Sunandan Bandyopadhyay- Dedication, perfection and what not... you will get to know this in simple sunny
Tushar Ghatol - KITS Ramtek, Now in Congnizant
Raul Dsouza - No Intro, already famous.
Atul Zade - This underdog has dedication to do anything. MBA from JBIMS
Ateet Vora - Gujju. Very Different from other. You will notice he is still different

And the missing one is me.............................

The Greatest Pain

2008-07-01T21:53:00.004+05:30

The greatest pain in life is not to die, but to be ignored.
To lose the person you love so much to another who doesn't care at all.
To have someone you care so about so much throw a party...
and not tell you about it.
When your favorite person on earth neglects to invite you to her graduation.
To have people think that you don't care.

The greatest pain in life, is not to die, but to be forgotten.
To be left in the dust after another's great achievement.
To never get a call from a friend, just saying "hi".
When you show someone your innermost thoughts and they laugh in your face.
For friends to always be too busy to console you when you need someone to lift your spirits.
When it seems like the only person who cares about you, is you.

Life is full of pain, but does it ever get better?
Will people ever care about each other, and make time for those who are in need?
Each of us has a part to play in this great show we call life.
Each of us has a duty to mankind to tell our friends we love them.
If you do not care about your friends you will not be punished.
You will simply be ignored... forgotten... as you have done to others.

here I got this

2008-06-21T15:30:00.002+05:30

" बेटा, एकच सांगतो
जीवन हा हास्य-अश्रुंचा
सागर संगम आहे ...

यात यशस्वीपणे
पोहयाचे असेल.....
तर हिंमत आणि मेहनत
या दोन गोष्टी
लक्षात ठेव... !

बेटा, त्याचा आधारावर
तुला तुजे ध्येय प्राप्त होइल
अणि जीवन हे
आनंदाचा इन्द्रधनुषी रंगने रंगून जाईल "

My Rules of Living

2008-06-16T21:09:00.002+05:30

These are some rules of my living, which I try to inculcate in my daily life

- Never put off till tomorrow, what you can do today
- Never trouble another for what you can do yourself
- Never spend your money, before you have it
- Never buy what you dont want because it is cheap
- Pride cost us more than hunger, thirst and cold
- We seldom repent having eaten too little
- Nothing is troublesome than to do willingly
- How much pain that evils have cause us that have never happened
- Take things always by the smooth handle

Think Positive

2008-06-16T21:02:00.004+05:30

I have read this somewhere... can't recall

" Say to yourself every morning

- Today is going to be great day!
- I can handle more than I think I can!
- I can be satisfied if I try to do my best!
- Things won't get better by worrying about them!
- There is always something to be happy about!
- I'm going to make someone happy!
- Its not good to be down!
- Life is great make the most of it!

BE OPTIMIST !!! "

Emotions

2008-06-16T20:57:00.004+05:30

It is true said that humans emotions are uncontrolled
Emotions are reflections of human adherent behavior
Numerous kind of emotions we can feel
1. Anger
2. Fear
3. Happiness
4. Love
5. Surprise
6. Disgust
7. Sadness

I am still skeptical about whether emotions can be controlled or not
If so, are they controlled by heart or by mind?

Backstreet Boys - The Perfect Fan

2008-06-11T16:49:00.000+05:30

It takes a lot to know what is love
It's not the big thing but the little things
That can mean enough
A lot of players to get me through
There is never a day that passes by
I don't think of you
You were always there for me
Pushing me and guiding me
Always to succeed

You showed me
When i was young just how to grow
You showed me everything that i should know
You showed me just how to walk without your hands
'Cause mom you always were the perfect fan

God has been so good
With blessing me with the family
Who did all they could
And I've had many years of Grace
And it flatters me when i see a smile on your face
I wanna thank you for what you've done
In hopes I can give back to you
And be the perfect son

You showed me
When i was young just how to grow
You showed me everything that i should know
You showed me just how to walk without your hands
'Cause mom you always were the perfect fan

You showed me how to love
You showed me how to care
And showed me that you would always be there
I wanna thank you for the time
And i'm proud to say you're mine

You showed me
When i was young just how to grow
You showed me everything that i should know
You showed me just how to walk without your hands
'Cause mom you always were the perfect fan

'Cause Mom you always were, Mom you always were
Mom you always were...the perfect fan

I Love You Mom

Random Thot

2008-04-29T17:55:00.006+05:30

This time I will prevent myself from any type of commitment.
It is not because minds have much common with one another,
Because of not the fact that someone is more important that sum of individuals .

Also not because I want to share a bond of love with someone.
It is not also because I don't want to be happy.

Yes within us, within each of us I believe
there is someone for whom you want to break all egoism and altruism.

May be I am alone in postulating the reality of mind.
But I am glad to be able to cite an evidence over here.

My reply to this would be "An environment, the culture, the surroundings which influences the individuals in his life neither the sum of individuals not the someone from group of individuals nor it is something other that mental experience. I guess the masted forces of egoism prevents individuals to act or may be someone behaves to prove his altruism. In this world all people want satisfaction, but gradually moving towards impatience. All underlying forces of human behaviour is influenced by every kind of environment. It is because of relations to one another"

Life!! Again

2008-04-27T07:52:00.003+05:30

Life is still a question for me,
How to spend the whole life,
without motivation,

Aimless life, No
Life with one specific goal,
No Inspiration

Discovered New,
A way of looking towards Life,
Is that so,

Become ruthless,
Ignore people around you,
For a Fun,

But the quesition pertains,

Is this what I wanted everytime,
Fun !! Joy !! Happiness
Costin at cost

At the cost of sleepless night,
At the cost of trust
At the cost of another Joy.

Still waitin....

Life !!!

2008-04-16T09:48:00.004+05:30

This is the true joy in Life,

the Being used for purpose

recognised by yourself as mighty one

the Being a force of nature instead of a

Feverish, Selfish little CLOT OF AILMENTS-----

and grievances complaining that the world

will not devote itself to making you happy
--------------------------------------------------------

I am os the opinion that my Life

belongs to the whole community

ans as long as I live, I rejoice my life for

its own sake, Life is no brief candle for me

It is a sort of splendid torch which

I have got hold of for the moment,

and I want it to make it burn as brightly as possible

before handling it on to future generation

-----------------------------------------------George Bernard Shaw

My Morning Prayer...Always

2008-04-16T09:40:00.003+05:30

"कराग्रे वस्ते लक्ष्मी
करमध्ये सरस्वती
करमुले तु गोविन्द
प्रभाते कर दर्शनं"

I know....

2008-04-16T09:29:00.004+05:30

Wind Blew, Falling leaves brushed past me
In a million years, I would never have guessed
that they had a sound, they had a colour
If you hadn't told me

The people ask me why
How I have lived till now
I tell them I don't know
I guess they will understand
How lonely life has been

But life began again they day you took my hand

The C experience

2008-04-15T23:49:00.008+05:30

Once I had a dream

And what I thought,
I never got
because God gifted me
all what I wanted.
The dream was about to complete........
And completion was not the end of dream...
The dream itself had one more dream,
so I dreamed in a dream.....

And once again
What I thought,
I never got
because God gifted me
all that I never wanted
So the dream was about to end.......
But the end itself is the start of begining
So the new dream started

I got,
what I never thought of,
because god gifted me
all I wanted

So again I had a reason to dream in my dream

But I got,
what I never thought of
because God gifted me
all I never wanted
And once again the dream was about to end

But now,
I am dreaming,
I am thinking about
what I never got,
because God gifted me
with what I wanted.

I will dream tomorrow again

I am thinking
about what will I want,
beacause God will gift me
what I am thinking

-with all these new and old dreams, I want to aspire what I thought and I never got

The One

2008-04-15T10:02:00.005+05:30

There was always "The One" in my Life

There was "The One" when I was child, who

always loved me

care about me

played with me

always came with me

made her prints in my life

There was "The One" my schooldays, who

came along with me for my school

studied with me

was present for me

helped me

inspired me

motivated me

There was the one when I become young, who

waits for me

waits to hear me

gets happy when I am happy

cries for me

fights for me

Yes, She is my Mom whom I love the most, She is always there when I am alone.

Artefact...

2008-04-15T10:00:00.002+05:30

Past
Time has gone when I was with my people
Time has gone when I saw her
Time has gone when I was with her
Time has gone when I saw dream
Time has gone when time only broke my dream
Time as gone when I was me

Present
Time has come to collect all remnants
Time has come to save all my emotions
Time has come to make a new dreams
Time has come to live life alone
Time has come to say she will be mine
Time has come to wait for the perfect time

Future
Time will come when I will be me
Time will come when she will be fine
Time will come when I will ask time to buy time
Time will come when I will be lookin for my life
Time will come when I will say its a good bye time

Friend of mine

2008-04-14T19:22:00.006+05:30

I think I have changed a lot,

People says you never get angry,
Is this what I wanted, This I never wanted to be,
People says sometimes you behave ...... upexpectedly
Is this what I ever wished.

Lookin back into the life
And counting.....

I never wish to be same
I never want to be alone
I always want to be someone

If I wish I could turn back time
To find...
what I have lost
what I wish I could have

But now I have changed
I want to be me..... alone.

I will beg and plea
fall to my knees
To find.......

Loneliness in my life

Life !!!! Goes On .......

2007-07-07T17:15:00.000+05:30

Life......

Do you mean a journey where u gets something from some one?

OK accepted it is a journey......then from where it is started......and where it will end.

There might be be many answers for this but as of I know it will end there only from where it has started..

May be I am wrong. May be in a wrong way of my journey but this is what I mean by my life......

What is Life then for You?

For me it is adhesion of the moments that you remember throught the life.....this moments might be happy one or it may apalled your life....

My Resignation Letter

2007-05-31T14:06:00.001+05:30

From: Praveen Umredkar
To: XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
Cc: XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
Subject: Resignation
Importance: High

XXXXXX,
This mail is to inform that I am going to resign from Syntel Limited with effect from today i.e. April 30, 2007. As of now I would complete all the tasks that have been assigned to me now and over the coming days till I am released with utmost dedication and efficiency.
I shall wholeheartedly assist my replacement in understanding the work and impart domain and business knowledge to the best of my abilities.
I would like to be released on or by May 29, 2007.

Thanks and Regards,
Praveen Umredkar

Nothing has more Significance

2007-04-26T08:40:00.000+05:30

What is the meaning of Null/Space?
Is it an absence of presence? Or is it a presence of nothing? Or is it some other thing?
If assumed that it is a presence of nothing then nothing is having a great significance in this case. Nothing signifies more than something. Nothing has more value than anything.

What is nothing is a great question comes in mind? Like that What is one thing? What is something? What is everything? And what is anything?
Everyone in this world is having a great significance of these *things in their life. These things are relative from a person to person.

A common would arrange these things in order as Nothing - One thing - Something - Anything - Everything. But when look in a specific way of life, these order may differ.

It is written in a Gita that earth was evolved from Zero/Nothing. There is start of everything and i.e. nothing. Even Mathematics start from 0 i.e nothing. There is nothing between earth and Sun, and thats why everything in this Earth persist. Even nothing in life has more significance that everything in life.

If a person having nothing; life has a scope for looking in a one thing, if he achieves onething her will look for something and then for anything and then for everything.

Nothing in a life is a base for everything. Everything in a life can't be achieve without nothing,
So nothing has more significance..........

Existence of Faith

2007-04-25T20:27:00.000+05:30

A question arises in a mind why there is an existence of faith? Why there is hope? What is a difference between faith and hope? Are they the same things?
May be....
They are the same for one or may be different for other one? It may depends on how one's look.
These two are mirror image of each other. One's existence depends upon the other or they are they are the two sides of single coin.

Conversation with God...

2007-04-25T09:55:00.000+05:30

Here I am in great dilemma about what to write? What to share?

I wonder how many times I've passed up an opportunity to be used in such a way. "To be used of God to speak, to sing, to pray. To be used of God to show someone the way. I want so much to feel the touch of his consuming fire. To be used of God is my desire."

I used to sing those words with passion as a teenager, but I was never sure God answered my sung prayer.

I used to remember God when I am trouble. But not at this time I remeber God for no reason.
And yes I am having a conversation with GOD.

Without beginning, middle or end, of infinite power,of infinite arms, whose eyes are the moon and sun, I see thee, whose face is flaming fire, Burning this whole universe with Thy radiance.

And the mentor of all living and nonliving egresses in front of my eyes. His Immense Power makes me blind. I was just able to see a great power, power of light, power of all.

It all started when I said, "God, please use me!". "Use me as a positive energy for mankind. I want to blaze in fire."
"I am In search of something. Dont know what am searching but will search till cataclysm."

The Great starts reply with an emmense power. His each and every words is making a volcanic eruption.

He just said....
"First search what you are searching. Don't just search blindly. You and You are only responsible for You."

With this response the immenes power starts revealing...........

Friends,
I am still in search of my search. I dont know what, why......